Ethica Odini (Day 23)

I've decided to start running every night and document my progress with an app called RunKeeper. I started tonight with a mile but only ran for a very small portion of it. Still, it's a start and I felt really good after I was done. I'm hoping to keep this going for quite awhile, just as I've managed to continue updating this blog. I think my obsessive tendencies are helpful in maintaining routines like these.

I really do want to be in better shape, not just because I want to look better (though that's certainly part of it) but because I want to be healthier, and have more energy. Just from walking/running tonight, my attitude and energy levels are vastly improved. I don't feel miserable or lethargic as I usually do after a day at work. I feel like only good can come of this, so I really hope I can stick to it. I don't work for at least the next two days, and possibly not even on Sunday either. With all of this free time, I need to make sure that I'm not just lounging around the house getting no activity.

The past few days haven't been great for my state of mind. I've been morose and restless, with multiple worries nagging at my subconscious. There are several reasons for me to be in a bad mood, but none of them feel compelling to me. For me to be relatively happy, I need to make sure that a couple of things are happening. I need to be productive in some way creatively (hence the creation of this blog), I need to get out of the house every once in awhile, and I need some form of social interaction. Even if it's just talking to people on League of Legends, Twitter, and/or Facebook, I need to interact with folks. It'd be nice to hang out with people offline too, but sometimes that's just not in the cards.

I may not lose weight at the rate I want and I may not have the level of creative output that I aspire towards, but the most important thing is that I'm trying. I can maintain a decent mood if I know that I'm trying to get things done. I'm so tired of wasting my days staring into space. I'm more than that and I know it. I've gotta wake up.