1,000 Deaths (Day 26)

My walk tonight was tougher than usual! I took off at a brisk jog and stopped when I felt like my lungs couldn't take it anymore. I was probably out of breath for the next half a mile, at least. I still ended up walking about three miles, which is pretty satisfactory for now. I think doing this every night is really starting to get to me. I may have to work out some kind of break day where I do something else (like lift weights) or I could just walk a bit of a shorter distance on certain days and work my way back up.

After browsing a couple of weightloss subreddits, I've come to the conclusion that I really should be counting calories in some way. It's something I've done many times over the years, and in at least one case it worked out really well. I ended up losing about 30 pounds, but gained it all back pretty quickly when I decided that food was my best friend. I really like food. I can't imagine being happy with a situation where I deprive myself of good food just because I'm counting calories. It seems more reasonable to just control my portions and not eat out that often. Still, if I'm not making some kind of record of it then its really easy to cheat without really thinking about it.

Honestly, I need to buy less "lazy" food. I have this bad habit of buying a bunch of frozen burritos and just eating nothing but burritos for two days. Same for brats or even sandwich meat. I should go out and buy some actual ingredients that I can cook some food with. I need to be less lazy and more motivated in general, so that seems like a pretty good step in the right direction (along with these blog entries and the exercise). I was kind of thinking about trying out tofu. I've had it before and really liked it--and it seems like you can put it in just about anything. It could take the place of eggs or beef which are already pretty versatile in dishes.

I need to drink more water as well. I'm so reliant on caffeine to get through the day that I end up skipping water a lot. I tried to cut out caffeine completely a couple months ago and actually managed to succeed--until I got a job and starting getting less and less sleep. I felt like I had to turn to caffeine again to cope and now here I am dependent on it again. I don't feel like it's something I can make a priority right now, but it still wouldn't be a big deal to just drink more water than I am now without exactly cutting out caffeine.