Ghost Key (Day 102)

Sometimes you'll just have those days where you wake up and you're incredibly tired and you can't figure out why. Today is one of those days. I have an inkling that I may have slept for too long--and glancing at the time, I can see that my inkling is correct. I couldn't tell you exactly what time I fell asleep but I know with some level of certainty that it was well over 12 hours ago. So, there you have it, I slept for well over 12 hours.

Logically, it would seem a longer period of sleep would leave you feeling more relaxed and refreshed. Unfortunately, this almost never seems to be the case. I don't necessarily feel like going back to sleep, but "refreshed" is far from the first word I'd used to describe how I'm feeling right now. I feel drained, strung out, and. . . my eyes hurt. I also have a bit of a headache. AND I'm hungry! Complaints!

When I first woke up I had no idea what time it might be. My ISP recently came in and replaced my ancient modem--which is great! However, the old box served a dual purpose of being a modem and also a cable box and as such included the current time. The new modem is a standard, tiny thing and does not include a digital readout of the time. Reflexively, I've glanced over to my left to see what time it is when I wake up, but I no longer have that luxury. I woke up surly and confused, completely in the dark--figuratively, because I forgot to turn the light off--and utterly unwilling to get out of bed.

It seems like the longer I stay in bed the more reluctant I am to leave. It doesn't matter how uncomfortable I feel; my brain tries to trick me into believing that all my ills will be solved if I refuse to get up. My brain is responsible for all sorts of vile tricks that prevent me from having satisfaction. Similarly, I always dread showers because--I don't know, I hate being wet? Somehow I forget that I always feel better afterwards when I am clean and not emitting foul odors.

I'm going to take the initiative on the trick my brain is currently trying to play. It's telling me that I should make this blog entry longer and more exhaustive instead of inserting food into my mouth. I'm going to go ahead and insert food into my mouth instead.