Credence (Day 184)

Man, I have been not been able to wake up at all these past few days. I'm incredibly dependent on coffee to make it through my day, even if all I'm doing is sitting in front of a computer. I just can't stay alert. I get sleepy. No matter how much sleep I get, I just can't stay alert and awake. I feel like I've had this problem forever, regardless of whether or not I'm currently consuming a lot of caffeine. 

I know a lot of it has to do with my extremely low activity level--but who wants to go outside and walk around in below freezing temperatures? I feel like I can't win here. I'm out of coffee and I'm sleepy all the time. I'll wake up and be alert for about two hours and then it sets in--I start to feel that lethargic haze creeping over me. It's getting pretty old, actually.

I've never been able to find a good solution for this problem, so my solution was to just keep getting a lot of caffeine. Unfortunately, this makes the symptoms even worse when I don't have access to it. It's cold and icy outside, so I may be without coffee for awhile. If I don't get some soon I'm going to. . .well, I guess I'm just going to sleep a lot and feel really tired. It's a very unfulfilling way to go about your days!

I really just want to get out and buy some stuff, but I don't have the cash and I don't fancy my chances on the ice with my two-wheel drive vehicle. I'm not a great driver in the first place. I'm certainly feeling a little trapped at the moment--as if my only viable course of action is to sleep until something happens. I have no control.