Hey Saturday Sun (Day 206)

I've been looking into playing some ROM hacks recently because I want to replay Final Fantasy VI but would prefer if it were even remotely a challenge. I found a hack called the "Evil Type" and it seemed pretty promising, but unfortunately I can't seem to get it to work. Every time I apply the .ips to the unpatched ROM, the game no longer works. When I try to load it up, I just get a black screen. This is pretty disappointing because I think it would be really fun to try. Oh well; I'll keep experimenting with it. For now I'm pretty irritated with it.

This is the second day in  row of not making progress on Final Fantasy II. I'm a little concerned that I'm going to lose interest. I'm not super into the game by any means, but I would still definitely like to finish it--if for no other reason that I would no longer feel obligated to play it. I feel like I can't resume Final Fantasy XIII-2 until I'm done with it, and I'd really like to continue playing it. I'm not sure why I deprive myself of something I actually want to do, but I guess it's just how my mind works.

Honestly, I'm not really even in a difficult spot in Final Fantasy II, if such a thing even exists. I've taken a brief break from the game due primarily to circumstance. I've been playing a lot of League of Legends with friends instead. I like hanging out with them (online) but sometimes I feel like it'd be better if we just chatted instead of actually playing. It seems so rare these days that I actually have fun playing the game. Because I play it so infrequently, my skill level has degraded. My decision making has degraded. And I don't feel motivated enough to do anything about that. There are so many other games I'd rather play instead. I'm beginning to grow tired of being inundated with League of Legends content all day every day. 


I've been in moods like this before and it led to me taking a break and maybe playing WoW for awhile. Well, I've recently played Rift pretty extensively so I'm not in much of an MMO mood. The problem is that I like having a game to play socially. League of Legends is a perfect fit because it's free and easily accessible to just about anyone. Sometimes, though, I feel like I've just really had my fill of the game. I've been playing it for years--and not just sporadically. I've been playing it very regularly for probably four years now. But I have so many other games to play now, and I no longer feel the need to play it alone. It's getting to the point where I'm reluctant to play it even with friends.

How do I continue to socialize with these people without feeling like an exile, though? I don't have social interactions like other people do. I very rarely leave my house. I'm definitely an internet kind of dude. I can keep showing up in TeamSpeak and chatting with these guys but the temptation to play LoL will always be there. In some cases I might be pressured into it, even if I don't think I'll necessarily enjoy it. It's not an easy situation to resolve.