From Roots to Needles (Day 311)

Today was a very stressful day for me. I can't say I excel in situations where I lack the proper knowledge to deal with a certain situation and I have no guidance on how to proceed. I'm good at following directions and completing familiar processes, but improvising can be tough, especially when it's so important that proper procedures be followed. I think when I get stressed out I have a much harder time internalizing and applying information. It's especially stressful when I feel like I'm not receiving enough assistance to appropriately get my work done. I guess I'll just have to learn some of these things by trial and error, but I'd rather be told straight up what I need to do than have to figure it out myself. That opens up the possibility that I mess something up which could result in someone being charged for the wrong thing or not getting what they thought they were supposed to get.

Anyway, I'm over it. I'm exhausted because I had a really hard time getting to sleep last night. This is very, very common and I have talked about it a lot on this blog. Unfortunately, I never seem to learn from my mistakes. Generally once I'm engaged in some process that requires me to exercise my mind, I forget about how sleepy I am. Now that I'm at home, it's definitely hitting me. I'm tired. I want to go to sleep, but I also don't want to waste my free time after work. I'm considering downing some coffee and catching up on the LCS while playing Lunar 2, but simply going to sleep also seems like an attractive option.

I have to work tomorrow, but after that I'll be off for three days in a row. I don't have any specific plans for these days, but I can only hope that I'll get something done creatively. I haven't updated the story lately--not because I don't have the time to do so, but because I'm drawing a blank and I don't want to phone it in. I have a lot of ideas on how to progress but I've written myself into a corner again. It's not so bad as the last time, of course. There are definitely ways to progress from here but I'm having a hard time figuring out interesting things that can happen. I think once I have a few days off in a row I'll be able to clear my head. My goal is to crank out at least two solid writing entries over this little break, so hopefully that works out.

I'm finding it difficult to muster up anything resembling real insight at the moment. It's like there's a storm cloud in my brain and my thoughts are having a hard time getting through properly. I imagine I'll have more to say pretty soon about Lunar 2 and maybe Fire Emblem, despite how slowly I'm progressing through both. I won't have much to do but sit at home and play video games over my three days off, so I'll probably throw some screenshots out there and talk about some of my initial impressions. I've played Lunar 2 before but it's been so long that it feels like the first time anyway.