Safety Bricks (Day 353)

I really need to do something about my money situation. I'm spending way too much on food, I think. I end up spending so much of my extra money on stuff like Red Bull and fast food when I could be buying stuff like rice and chicken breast that would last me a lot longer and cost me less in the long run. Of course, this also means I'd have to put more effort into actually preparing my food instead of just popping it in the microwave. I do tend to be more satisfied with meals I've prepared myself, but it's the motivation that kills me.

It's a moot point for right now anyway, because I literally have no money to buy food at the moment. I'll have to work something out so I can last until the first of the month. I suspect I'll be subsisting almost entirely on coffee and nasty frozen burritos (of which I only have a few remaining) until that point. I wouldn't get into these situations if I planned out my budget more carefully, but I never seem to want to make the time.

Assuming I can find a way to survive over the next few days, I'm going to try to make some kind of budget when I get paid again. I know what bills I have and generally when they're due, but I still somehow manage to get blindsided by things like this simply because I don't account for all the little things I spend money on. I'll take things like gas and my car insurance bill into account but not multiple trips to  Taco Bell or expensive energy drinks. I'm not in a place in my life right now where I can give up caffeine, but I do have other options. For some reason I stopped making coffee while I'm at work and I'm not sure why. I could easily continue doing that. I think maybe I wasn't comfortable with using their coffeemaker, but I could probably just go ahead and get over that.

I think I have this bad habit of getting complacent and settling into toxic routines. I am a victim of convenience. It's easy for me to pick up fast food after work instead of coming home and cooking something. It takes less time, but I generally have plenty of time to do these things--but I'm very greedy. I'm greedy with my time because I like to fill it with things that I feel are important. I don't prioritize things that in all honestly should probably get done. As a result I end up with a messy house and go weeks at a time without cooking a real meal.

It's certainly a frustrating aspect of my personality but it's difficult to overcome without significant self-motivation. There are certain things I can definitely motivate myself to do. This blog is a major example of that. I'm proud of what I've accomplished here, even if no one else ever reads it. It's something I challenged myself to do and I lived up to it. In less than two weeks, I will have been updating this blog every day for a year. That's a pretty cool thing.