Adult Things

With all the excitement over the past couple of days, I haven't been nearly as vigilant about exercise and diet. I plan to get back to that starting tomorrow provided I don't spiral unexpectedly into depression. I'd like to do some more cleaning on the house. Having the kitchen as clean as it is is actually quite the boost in my contentment level. I'd like to move a lot of things around in my living room (which is actually where I sleep and spend the majority of my time) but working up the motivation to do so is quite difficult! I have aspirations to move pretty much everything around, which is a huge time and energy commitment.

I'm going back tomorrow after my mini-transformation and I"m pretty curious as to how I'm going to feel with my new clothes/look. It's not as if my paralyzing self-doubt is capable of evaporating at the drop of a hat, but I can only hope that I'll feel a tad more confidence and comfort than usual. This whole thing is a slow process, but I'm committed to it for the long haul. I also really hope I meet my activation quota, because that'll make a pretty significant impact on my next paycheck! Or rather, the one after that one. Still.

Despite everything going on in my life right now, I haven't felt like I've had a great deal to write about. I'm not sure exactly what that means. I write a lot about video games, of course, and I haven't had quite as much time to play them. I'm still working on Final Fantasy XIV and in fact I'm only a level away from the cap--but I could have hit that some time ago under different circumstances. I think I've just been busy and I haven't felt up to completely processing how I feel about everything that's been going on. I think after I go out into the real world and deal with customers all day tomorrow I'll have a better idea of how things are going for me currently.

I talk about my plans, my aspirations, and my dreams on this blog a lot but I don't devote nearly as much time actually following up on them. I think that's something that I did over the past couple of days, even if what I accomplished doesn't seem like much to your average person. I drove to Bowling Green for the first time like someone who actually knows how to drive a vehicle. I shopped for a new wardrobe and got a grownup haircut. These are all milestones for me, as mundane as they are on the surface. I can only hope that these small things I'm accomplishing are a gateway to bigger things--a gateway to becoming the kind of person I always hoped I could be.