Vorpal Thrust

Day 426

Y'know, even though this probably wasn't the greatest timing to start an MMO, at least I only need one more game to hit 30 for this year. It could easily be Lufia 2 or even FFXIV itself--because I'll consider it beaten once I hit level 50. I'm sure I'll be playing it a loooot longer than that, though, which is a disconcerting thought all it's own.

Still, I'm pretty tired of marathoning my backlog. I've cleared out a lot of it this year but there's still quite a bit to go. I'm not sure I have it in me to play through SMT: Nocturne and the two Digital Devil Saga games all in a row for instance, especially considering the fact that there are several games coming out soon I'd much rather prioritize, not least of which is Persona Q, coming out just next month. I also need to finish up Persona 4 Arena Ultimax, even though I've beaten the main storyline--or at least the Persona 4 portion. I fully intend to complete the Persona 3 half and Adachi's story as well. I'll most likely get that done Thursday night or maybe even sooner since I'm working all these short shifts this week.

I'm going to be pretty intent on making a lot of progress on FFXIV for awhile, but I'm determined to not let it distract me from my other gaming goals. There's only so much I can write about FFXIV after all and I don't want to inundate my blog with content about it, even though it's inevitable that I'll be writing about it a bit. I remember when I was playing Rift a lot, it was all I wrote about for probably seven or eight entries in a row--and I definitely didn't like the game that much. MMOs are just very addictive games and there are a lot of mechanics and principles to analyze and talk about. FFXIV is no different--but it also happens to be part of a series of games I've been a fan of since childhood! There's a lot to think about there, but I'm going to get higher up in the ranks before I really decide to reflect on my experience in detail.

Work has been really hectic lately too, so maybe that's why I've sunken so deep into the MMO experience. It really does give me a chance to wallow in escapism--although admittedly I do this quite frequently. It could probably be said that kind of thing is unhealthy, but it works out alright for me. I feel very strongly that I have a sense of self. I'm capable of relating with other people and socializing--but I don't consider it much of a priority, all things told. I do it for the sake of my job and I feel I'm pretty good at it, but left to my own devices I think I'd rather be alone--or at least a part of a very small group of 2-3 people.

I don't know. I'm rambling. That's alright, though. I've been somewhat concerned lately that I'm going to stop updating this thing, so when I feel like I can just let loose and talk about stuff, that's a good feeling. This blog has not historically been chock full of high caliber writing because that's not what it's all about. Sometimes it's just about committing the jumble of thoughts in my head to page. It's a way to express all the asinine and mundane thoughts I have on a daily basis without burdening an actual person with them. It's a good outlet for me.