Beginnings

I find myself consumed with a bone-deep weariness unlike anything I've experienced over the past year or so. It reminds me a lot of when I used to work at Walmart some time ago--a position that required me to be on my feet for the span of an eight hour shift. For almost a year now, I've had the good fortune of having a job that allows me to stay seated in front of a computer. However, the store's being remodeled soon. In this new store design, sales associates such as myself will be expected to stand in front of raised monitors, ostensibly to appear more inviting to potential customers. I might have dreaded this change a few months ago, but now that it's coming closer, I find myself welcoming it. I've lived far too sedentary a life over the past several months. Being put in a position where I'm required to stand up and walk around every day can only help me achieve my fitness goals. I've been declining to sit in my chair during the past few days of work in preparation for this change. It's been unexpectedly tiring.

I'm not in great shape. I'm losing weight, but I'm still getting very little exercise. This is something I'm working on changing. I'd originally planned to do some basic workouts tonight, but I'm so exhausted that I've abandoned the idea entirely. An impromptu trip to my cousin's place resulted in playing drums for a good hour or so. That level of strenuous activity combined with being on my feet all day has left me rather more tired than I'd expected to be. It's good though--I'm glad to be tired and I'm glad that my muscles ache, because it signifies a beginning for me. It lets me know that I'm burning calories. So long as I don't use this weariness as an excuse to stay inactive in the coming days, it's nothing but a good thing.

I didn't get as many calories today as I probably should have, but I ate more than enough to satisfy my hunger--and that's really all I can do. I've been eating two somewhat large meals a day lately because it's difficult to find the time in the mornings for breakfast. That would mean waking up early and I'm already uncomfortable with waking up at 7:45 as I have been. I love the idea of fruit smoothies for breakfast but it sort of clashes with my ritual morning coffee. I guess I could do both but it sounds awkward. Even if I prepare the smoothie the night beforehand, it's unlikely I'd have enough time in the morning to consume the smoothie before heading out the door. Even then, I typically end up taking lunch at 11. It seems pointless to eat before heading to work when I'm going to be eating so soon into my shift anyway.

I should make a bunch of smoothies and just have them ready at work. Yeah. Good idea.

I think I've decided I'm going to drop some kind of update on my weight every Saturday on this blog with thoughts on how my diet/exercise regimen is going. I can only hope my entries in the future will be less scatterbrained than this one. My weariness is due in no small part to my increased activity level lately--that's true. But beyond that, I also haven't been getting as much sleep and I think there's a variety of reasons why. I've had a lot on my mind--plans, aspirations, worries, the usual fare. Combine that with a sudden dramatic change in temperature and surroundings (I cleaned up a bit) and you have restless sleep. Hopefully that problem will clear itself up over time.