Yikes, it's been almost a month since I've written an entry. This was certainly not my original plan when I decided to stop updating daily. I can make excuse after excuse that I've abandoned quantity for quality, but that statement rings false to my ears. I'm proud of the reviews I wrote in January, but February only saw one entry lamenting the fact that I was not writing--much like this one, in fact. Why do I so often let laziness get the better of me, to prevent me from doing those things I'd very much like to do?
Of course, I haven't been entirely unproductive with my time. I've been adhering reasonably closely to my vegetarian diet for what must be three months now. On January 24th, I purchased a scale and started keeping track of my weight weekly. After a month's time, I lost 13 pounds. For my most recent weigh-in, I gained a pound back--so I've decided to redouble my efforts. Although I had been making a concerted effort to eat healthy, I'd not given much thought to my portions or calorie content. From now on--or until I develop better instinctive judgment--I'm keeping track of my calorie intake with a general goal of coming in at around 1800 calories per day. It might seem somewhat ambitious to track my weight loss every week, but until Saturday, I was consistently losing 3-4 pounds every time. I mean to continue that track record. If I reach yet another plateau, I'll have to again up the ante.
I haven't yet taken the plunge into adhering to rigorous regular workouts, but I imagine I will have to do so soon. I'm in quite miserable shape even disregarding my weight. At this point I can't even manage 10 push-ups. Only a few years ago, I could easily crank out 20 push-ups per day. I can only guess as to why I didn't continue to ramp up the intensity of that particular workout, but I feel sure my tendency toward laziness and apathy must have had something to do with it. My motivation comes in fits and spurts--and I'm easily sidetracked and discouraged by events in my life.
Aside from my new weight loss goal, I've been playing and completing video games at as breakneck a pace as ever. I've already completed 10 games this year, which puts me well on track to break last year's record of 35 assuming I can continue my current trend. Several of those games were completed with the assistance of my co-op partner. For the first time ever, we played a game together while in the same room. It was also the first time in some years that I ventured out of my home and spent time with a friend in person regularly. I think this trend may well continue, assuming we can find something else to play.
I think my contentment level depends on a variety of factors. I know what most of these factors are, but I so frequently fail to insure that my needs are met because it involves effort on my part. It is important to me to be comfortable in my own surroundings and that part of my life is definitely improving. After months of living in miserable cold, I've finally acquired a propane heater. No longer must I hide under a mountain of blankets and wear layers simply to approach some level of comfort in my own home. However, the house is still mostly a mess and I have not put forth the level of effort required to make it feel livable even though I know it would make me significantly more comfortable and happy. Similarly, I have not put forth the effort required to regularly update this blog. It's not about writing something for others to read. It's about writing something to write something.
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